Question
January 17, 2011
Do you ever feel regret for the way you treated me, and the way you used me, and the awful things you did not only to me but to others? Just curious, because any normal, non-souless monster would have regrets and think How could I do something so terrible to another human being. But I don’t think you think that, but you should. I have said this before and I will say this again: You are the destroyer of worlds, and only the criminally ill would treat and use people in the way you treated and used me. Only someone as evil as you would leave a scar so deep and long that I would still be talking about it almost two years later.
Goodbye forever!
The Best Christmas Gift Ever!
December 22, 2010
Me and my girlfriend have moved in together, meaning that this Christmas I won’t be alone, also meaning that this Christmas I will recieved the best Christmas present of all: a Christmas without you and all your hateful words and drama, but spent with someone I love. The only person you can do harm to now, M, is you.
Merry Christmas to me.
Re-boot: From Last Thanksgiving (2009)
November 30, 2010
Well, here we are, our first major holiday separated from each other. Had a nice get-together at my cousins, watched the game. My mom asked me how I felt, this being the first holiday being alone and not together, and, to be honest, I hadn’t even thought about it until she mentioned it. I guess I had been alone for such a long time, or at least living like I was alone for such a long time even when we were together that it didn’t impact me at all. Honestly, it was like I was baby sitting for those three years. I was living with somebody that was so grossly irresponsible that I was, in every sense of the word, going at it alone.
I hope you had a happy thanksgiving, M, and are happy with the mess you have created.
Things were a little different this year. For one I introduced my girlfriend to my family, and second I celebrated Thanksgiving in my own home. But for the most part things were the same, i.e. I’m still happy to be rib of the nightmare that was my former life and wife.
Where the hell am I?
September 28, 2010
If life is a journey then I know exactly where I am!
I read a similar posting on a similar blog, and it got me to thinking. Just because I am now divorced and rebuilding, does this mean that I am lost or was lost? Does this mean that I am broken goods?
No. No, it doesn’t!
The truth is – X hear me now – is that I was always the one holding things toegther, whether it be finacial, emotional, what have you. I was the one who had to find ways to overcome our obsticals; I was the one who always had to bear the weight on his shoulders, with little or no reliefe from my *quote/unquote* better half.
I have always known exactly what I wanted and how to get it, I just made this one error in judgment.
So, for the record, I am not lost. I know exactly where I am and where I am going, and I always have.
You lost your way. Hopefully for your sake and for the sake of those depending on you, you find your way.
Totally forgot
September 23, 2010
Yesterday would have been our third anniversary… if you hadn’t gone ahead and blown it. Yeah, I’m still a little bitter. Don’t get me wrong, I couldn’t be happier that we are no longer together – I have my own place, girlfriend, and a great job – but when somebody so blatantly uses and manipulates somebody, it takes a while to get the bad taste out of your mouth.
Anyway, good riddance.
Sing Along!
August 26, 2010
Do I Hate My Wife – Revisted
August 18, 2010
I posted this just before I left my wife:
Do I hate my wife?
No.
This blog has nothing to do with hate. Hate implies that I want something awful to happen to her, and that is not true.
I, however, do not want to be her friend, lover, or husband any longer. It’s horrible to say, I know, but after what has happened I am pretty confident that she feels the same way. I look forward to the day when I can say to her that, now, it is official, we are divorced and I never want to see you again.
Which is sad, because, like most courtship’s, we started out with fire – blazing fire – and if I didn’t have to think about the constant arguing and fighting we have now when I look back at the good times, I would say that the first eight months or so after we met was the best time in my life.
So, no I don’t hate her. For all you people out there struggling in their marriage who are already in the grip of divorce, think about what you are saying when you say that you hate someone, it is a truly awful thing.
If anything, I am saddened by what we are now, considering what we were, which, believe it or not, was two people who were very much in love, something that is no longer the case.
I am a year out past the finalization of our divorce and I can say that I have never been happier. I have expelled from my life something that was and is truly awful and hateful and replaced it with exactly the opposite. What is even better is that I DID get the opportunity to tell my ex “I never want to see you again!” And I haven’t. And it is great!
I know, I know, I’m awful. And maybe I am? Maybe for a brief moment I did choose to be just as evil and vindictive as her, but you know what? I deserve to be! That’s right. After all the things she did to me I deserved a little payback, and I took it. And God willing – knock on wood – I will never see her again, for many, many years that remain in my life!
Solitary Man Lryics
July 28, 2010
Quote
June 14, 2010
“Denial ain’t just a river in Egypt.”
- Mark Twain (1835-1910)
